Tae Kwon Do (TKD) memories... ♥

I'd finally tidied my CLOTHES and this is what I found!!! ;P
I miss d old times...Julie, Lidi, Jess, Piggy and me!!! and of course michelle, natalie and everyoneelse...
If only we had the chance to play like that again...that time wont come back anymore...though the training was tough but we'd a lot of fun...

Seriously, I felt like joining TKD again next time.
Even if so, I'll be training with new people in a new surrounding.

so this is a new year...lots of the "NEW" to be explored :)
honestly, I am looking forward to face all that but at the same time, I am afraid...
perhaps, it's d process of growing up.

"something" on this morning which makes me aware of the importance of cherishing every moments...anything can happen. I too saw how great is God's LOVE. Everything is in His hands...He plans it all...I should learn to trust and lean on Him...I thank Him so much for everything. ♥ :D

new year new hairstyle :P

(now u see nwo u dont):)

HAHHHAHAHHAH i looked funny right? looks like market ah mu geez...i never know perming hair can have such ending!!!! n worst of all i spend so much on that >.<" oh wells...it's one of the new stuff I'd tried this new year!!! more to come coz I need to save myself from that mess I'd caused...for the sake of FUN!!! :P


I upload it here for U only dear!!!! miss u lotz!!!! :D U know who u r?? hehheh try to be the perasan one leaving comment then ;) mwax!!!!

january 2010 is coming to an end so FAST!

January is quite a pleasant month...Quite interesting one way or another...haha
This is a little of somethings that I did after quiting my job.

My first time cooking for family :)


Canned pork :P


Rice + Brocolli + Pork + Seaweed soup


Brocolli

Honestly all d food tastes not bad but not good either...there's obviously rooms for improvement ;)

Volunteery work in the Dyslexic Centre.

This is me and little Abigail. She's only 2-3 years old. Abigail's is very tiny so I am like a giant playing with her.


Just look at her palm and my palm...haha isn't she TINY? :P



Vain little Abigail and me. :P

Tidied all my secondary school books. Donated my Form4 and 5 textbooks to SMK St Joseph...Hopefully it will be of good use. I love all my precious books...Going to donate some to the Salvation Army and the Dyslexic Centre. I'll be selling those used papers to the newspaper man too... RECYCLING is good :D




Of course there's a lot more...tuition notes, papers and old exercise books...

A great classmate of mine had gone to Australia to study and I didnt get to meet him for the last time. :( Well, even if we met, it'll be very different compared to form6 times in class. Perhaps Friends do come and go...only memories never change ^^

Hopefully grandma will be a lot a lot better soon. I'll be on job hunting mode soon after all the spring cleaning and Chinese New Year preparations are done! :)

Btw, I'd found a very delicious bun! xD Anyone knows where to get these other than WeCare bakery shop and Hui Sing food court?

I shall paint my 2010 :):)

I'd been working for exactly a week now. I am not used to such schedule at first but i guess it'll be ok since my doubts about the job i am doing is cleared finally! My first working experience. Honestly I hadnt been doing much and I get paid? Well, I am glad that I'm working. At least part of my new year is filled with something more beneficial other than playing computer games, facebook-ing and chatting. :D

I'd start a volunteering job today and it's a very exciting job.

Hopefully I'll meet more people from all folks of life and do something I'd aspire to do but never taking the very first step :D I'll fill the tiny bits of my schedule with some beneficial activities or lessons. Time is GOLD!

Though I'd been losing faith in God since last year over my selfishness, I'll still be grateful and thank God for each n every day of my life :)

2010 first post

It had been very long since my last post. At times, I don't know what to blog about. It seems like I'd finally get to realised that not every feeling, every situation or thoughts can be describe in words properly. It's the beginning of a new year yet lots of things had happened. Perhaps it is the same for all other years but I hadn't been noticing it because there's always things to do in school.

I'd applied some jobs to avoid myself getting rotten at home. I thought things would be easier if I can drive but... I guess things always doesnt go according to plan. Perhaps that's why life is tough yet worthwhile to go on? Hopefully everything ahead will be alright :)

爱在哪里？

为什么我从来没有经历这样的爱? 如祖父母，似乎觉得自己是一个负担，并决定放弃我. 尽管我可能是一个被宠坏的孩子，我尽我最大努力帮助和爱他们. 他们实际上是关心我所做的？ 或者他们只是关心自己的女儿和女婿? 我讨厌看到他们担心他们的女儿。她有一个可怕的态度，但尚未祖父母爱她比我多。我知道我是她的嫉妒，但正如我似乎不那么幸运，她被人谁爱她。为什么我爱的家人和朋友？当我只是为他们的选择...
有时，我觉得上帝玩我的生命. 给我这样一个伟大的希望和东但不可能实现...是很有趣？给我希望然后带走...
但我很感谢我有的一切 :)
有些人只是想成为一个医生为了钱或专业但他们得到他们想要的东西。我真诚地希望成为一名医生但不能成真. 我看到来自各地的疾病世界穷人的痛苦,但贫穷，防止他们看医生,我为他们心痛..我要尽我的一部分，帮助人们。
生活本身并不是一件容易的道路最糟糕的那些谁是病人和残疾人。是不是？我知道我可以帮助时，虽然没有成为医生但我想减轻痛苦，而不是只给他们钱.我不是说我多么高尚的很好，但对我来说，我们的生命不只是为自己而且我们应该帮助别人就像我们的家人。
就在昨天晚上，我看到了一个哑，聋小男孩谁卖玩具在新加坡鸡饭店,没有人买他的玩具...我真的想购买至少一个，但我的爷爷不允许。他说，我们有金融危机，不应该浪费这些钱。如果这是我们所谓的因为钱的问题的痛苦，他的痛苦又如何？爱是重要特别是给不幸的人...
为什么有这么多人受苦？
为什么出数以百万计的人只有这么少的实际接触到他们？
为什么幸运的人非常幸运，但不幸的非常不幸的？
为什么每个人都只能看着他们受苦，但没有尽力帮助？
为什么每个人只关心自己？自己的口袋
我不明白。我不明白。 我真不明白...

最近有这么多问题...我不想思考...不想!!! 我很疲倦...

The missing piece...

I should continue to wait while trusting and do what I should be doing now. I should be studying...I should be doing my last preparations for my stpm. I shouldn't let anything bother me at this time...I know...

But
I'm afraid if I'd aimed too high...It seems so high that i couldn't reach it..
.

I'm afraid I'd made the wrong choice to remain in physics stream from the very beginning...I'd never regreted it because I'd learnt a lot in various aspects which I can't possibly gotten from books and I'd met a lot of great people whom I truely cherished within the 1.5years...It was the BEST part of my life...(perhaps I should see it as...i'd learnt different things and had lots of bittersweet in each stage of life's journey as one of my classmate said)

I'm afraid if I'd hold on for nothing...all the discouragement perhaps should be accepted since the very beginning? What's the point of holding on? what's the point of believing in determination and perseverence?Is it me being to naive believing that hardwork and perseverence will bear fruit in the end? If that's naive, then everyone should just sit back and relax throughout their lives then?

I'm afraid if all my effort happens to be useless...The drive for me to work hard and climbs up when i fall seems to be just an illusion...

I'm afraid if I'll ended up being just like others...doing those routine works and live life for the sake of earning money which thought to be for self-satisfaction. Earn lots of money= happy life? <<Is that life all about...when u're poor, all u can do is to accept fate...whatever comes to you just take it and live ordinary just like everyoneelse?It's much easier to be simple isn't it?

I DON'T WANT! I DON'T WANT!!!!!!!!!!!IT HAD BEEN SO LONG THAT I PERSEVERE...I WONT AND MUSTNT LET IT GO!!! I BELIEVE IN WHAT I BELIEVE AND I'LL HANG ON even if it's just an illusion...at least I'd tried my best...til the end I might fall hard but no regrets right? The beautiful illusion perhaps is the missing piece that fullfilled the jigsaw puzzle in my life? My life wouldn't be complete without the missing piece isn't it?

...time to resume study